The deadly emotions

As I turn my life into christianity , I was able to identify the disturbance to my inner peace . There are many emotions that putting my inner peace into trouble . Even in our bible study where I feel so much security then suddenly ,my churchmates was teasing me about my sensitivity . After that , I would rather lock myself in my room and let my mind overthink , thinking about negativities . Imagine , getting too emotional because of being emotional . How could a christian talk about someones sensitivity ?---but then I realize that maybe , your sensitivity was touched because you touched someone's sensitivity . When I confronted them about my sensitivity , someone also confronted me saying 'now you feel what I felt when you were telling a joke about my sensitivity' and that hits me . When you say a good word , you will hear good echoes . When you say bad words , you will hear bad echoes . Like what they have said , what goes around , comes around . I have learned that our sensitivities can be a gift if we surrender it to God because only God can turn mess into a beautiful message .

Emotions are normal it gives color and meaning to our lives , it allows us to express and to experience the journey deeply but sometimes we are letting those emotions control us .

The 5 deadly emotions 

1 . FEAR

There are many reasons why we have fear , fear of commitments , fear of facing a problem , fear of change , fear of losing love ones and etc. 

'Before , I'm afraid of losing circle of friends because I thought , a lot of friends means a lot of shoulder to cry on --but no . I made a lot of friends , different circle of friends . I always want to keep in touch just to make them feel that we are still friends but not everyone feels the same way as you feel . As I grow , my BIG circle became smaller and smaller until I found the real friends . Now , I can clearly see that circumstances will shake our relationship and to those who really cares will be the one to keep in touch . When I learn how to manage that fear of mine , I didn't reach out for anyone but some reached out for me' 

Maybe , God wanted to teach me a lesson that I have fear because it's unpredictable and I have a wrong belief that there are responsible person to keep my emotions guarded. I always thought that if I treat them this way , I expect that they will do the same . I have fear because I didn't trust Him . I'm scared of having smaller circle but I never realize that God is always with me , what shall I fear ? 

Some has different fears and it will make us stagnant . It will not allow us to grow and stop us from learn new things . Fear is the greatest demon we can dealt with . All of us are struggling with the same thoughts but we have different ways on how to overcome it , some overcome fears better than us . Even if we are not accepted by our circles , relatives and church members , we are accepted by our One Great God . 

2 . JEALOUSY

Jealousy can destroy a lot of relationships whether it's inside the ministry , the family , friends and marriage . Sometimes , we are jealous because of our insecurities in our life . We always think that someone is better than us and we need to accept the fact that there will always be someone who is better than us . 

Especially in love , we are jealous because someone is getting our partner's attention instead of him/her giving us more affection . If we are jealous sometimes we are unintentionally hurting someone because jealousy burns within us . Let us reach out with love . Look for the beauty in everything and unconsciously , the bitterness will subside . Maybe not right away , not really soon but eventually . It is like a seasonings in a food , a little can enhance the taste but too much can spoil the food . Jealousy is very powerful emotion but if we choose love over jealousy , you will be going to have a peace of mind . Someone is a victim of our jealousy but we can choose to turn things around and make others as recipient of our love .

3 . LUST

In this emotion , we need to assess our self if what do we really need . Affection ? Affirmation ? Love ? Acceptance ? Or just the wants of the flesh ? 

I have heard this story of a girl who was mollested when she was young and as she face adulthood the trauma attacks her . She became the girl she never dreamed of . Having intercourse with a lot of guys , hearing those guys pleading to have sex with her is like a melody in her ears that satisfies her inner needs . Her past is always on her mind and that awakens the desires of her flesh to revenge . It's her way to revenge . Maybe , she thinks 'this is how I'm satisfied' because she was blinded by anger and her brain has a pleasurable experience in a twisted way . 

I thought that lust is just for sexual desires but no , some also has a traumatizing past that makes them have a lust for revenge , lust for attention , lust for the things we need to hear and etc. We can divert the cravings of our body into fulfilling our holy spirits if we learn to work for our souls instead of our flesh . We are always longing for some things but let us not fall into deception , that this is what we really need when in fact all of it are temporary .

4 . ANGER

Are we still struggling on how to manage our anger ? People can offend us on our open wounds and that is really annoying . Even if they knew that we are offended , they are doing the same things over and over again , that can trigger our anger 

There are people who will always hurt us , gossip about us , offend us but the scriptures said that we should be quick to listen , slow to speak and slow to anger . If we knew that some situation will rise our anger , then we should react slowly . We will never be free from anger , the thing is how are we going to manage it . Don't let our angers grow and foster always choose to be calm for us to be free from anger and to dominate the people in our lives . We just have choices . It's either we embrace forgiveness or we stay angry . Yes , forgiving may be a long process but atleast we can lessen the heaviness in our hearts and as time goes by , we are unaware that we already let go of that anger . It's just a matter of choice if we choose to invite peace in our lives or keep our grudges . 

5 . PRIDE 

Pride is like saying that you are better than anyone and invites competition . We don't want to admit that we are prideful because of pride . We tend to recognize ourselves , lifting it up rather than God . 

When we excert wisdom with so much humility we can learn so many things . How are we going to learn if we always compete with others ? We need to interact with others not to compete but to hear their point of views . Accepting the fact that there will be always a person who are better than us but instead of being prideful learn from them and try to celebrate about their victory . Some people don't want to praise or give credit to other because they don't want to turn the attention from them . 

Pride always lead us on wanting success and power without realizing that sometimes we are robbing others success for our own interest , we are robbing the confident they build because instead of recognizing them , we keep on pushing them down , we are robbing someones self esteem just because we want to be more successful than others . Is this what we want ? To be a robbers ? If no , I think we already need to change . Always handle people around us with humility and seek for understanding from God through other people .